The patterns you unwittingly created in the past are alive here and now.
Those patterns can make it difficult for you to stay in touch with your kind heart, your open mind and your deep wisdom. So understanding what those patterns look like and how they operate is FAR more important than why they are there or what caused them.
Why are they there??? => Because they are.
What caused them??? => Everything.
Lets move on.
When you are able to recognize your patterned nature, it is because you are ALREADY standing with one foot in your unpatterned nature. This means that when you are awake enough to SEE the patterns arising it is because you have ALREADY contacted your larger nature.
The patterns are moving, and you have rightfully accepted your birthright as the open spaciousness within which the patterns are moving.
You understand deeply that you are NOT the patterns, and as long as you are awake, you can simply watch the pattern as a play of impulses, thoughts, and sensations.
No big deal. Unpleasant maybe, like constipation, hunger or a headache, these are simply experiences created by the interplay of various bodily functions, sensation and the meaning you give them.
But what happens when you just allow the play of your patterns to do what they will, while you just sit and watch? What happens when you consent to opening beyond the play of patterns, where all impulses are simply seen as ornaments arising within the spaciousness that you ARE?
What happens?
Come closely and let me whisper in your ear: Dear one, you will simply relax into your unbound largeness, your heart will open to the world, and you will touch and bless all who you encounter, by doing nothing at all.